Yui isn't sure if she agrees with this statement! =<
Title quote by my (awesome, fabulous) English teacher (who is made of win, did I mention that already? >=>), quick doodle…like 20 minutes or so. I had a hard time deciding the pose. 
Okay, time for a rant. You can stop reading now if you don’t want to hear it. D
Monthly annoyance
(no, I’m not going to post something like this every month from now on =,D)
I have no idea what to do with my life =3=. Seriously. 
I lost my drive that kept pushing me forward a while ago. Now, the only thing that I want to do is to slump into my chair and do some pointless messy doodling of geometric forms that requires as little brain activity as possible. It’s awful. It’s not like I don’t want to get any work done…I feel like practicing my newfound knowledge on semi-realism, I want to excercise, write, work on PH and CB…but I just can’t get myself up to do anything
At first I thought I just want too much. So I started focusing on one thing at a time, but it didn’t work out. I was simply unable to finish anything. until the start of my vacation on thursday, I couldn’t even draw. I can do that now, hardly, but I can’t color or do any lineart, it just becomes incredibly hard once I get started and I start messing up x,D To me it feels like the quality of my drawings, of my writing, of anything I do is dropping dangerously low.
Also, I need to start working to establish some sort of portfolio. Next year around this time, I will be preparing for my graduation, the last oral exam and everything. I’m almost forced to do something. It’s always “You’re so young, you have lots of time! 
”, but I really don’t. x,D There are deadlines for everything and I’m not sure if I can match them. I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to match my own expectations.
Fuck you, perfectionism.
[/rant >=<]
Onee-sama ♥
*pats* that happens to everybody ^^;
You’re probably hitting a wall right now, wanting to do or become so many things and not knowing how to (or just not believing you’re able to, or not even having the motivation to start). And that’s normal…. or at least it’s normal for me
;
Just try to stop worrying over things right now and just HAVE FUN doing whatever the hell you want to do C: Forget perfect! Forget practice! Just do whatever you feel like doing! Have fun! experiment! You’ll creative side will get fueled again and you’ll get motivated again without even noticing ^^
At least that works for me and fuels me for a month or so, haha
; And believe me, I hit walls of worries quite often ^^;
You’re right, I think I really might be forcing myself into something…=< I guess I should just try to do what I feel like without stubbornly trying to achieve things I’m stuck with
D Thanks ♥ 
Oh, I get like that on regular intervals as well x,D Glad to hear I’m not the only one. u_u
Ich stimme Deji vollkommen zu x’D bis auf die Tatsache das ich es überwunden habe ich fühle mich ab und zu auch so aber das weisst du ja x’DDDD
*lach*
Aber alles im Allen hat es Deji auf den Punkt getroffen =(
*cielo anflausch und feste durchknuddel*
;3;